Argh. Just need to vent for a bit, sorry, and would appreciate any thoughts, although it’s a bit late now, unfortunately.
I started writing the story, but it’s long and convoluted and stupid, so I’m not going to try to explain. But the girl who was my best friend is not that girl anymore, and I’m really sad. It’s been dragging on for months, but tonight I got a text saying ‘thanks for being a crappy friend’. It seems to be the death knell for a friendship of years, and I still don’t really understand what happened to her.
I know I could have been a better friend sometimes and I could have been there more, but she kept putting me in impossible situations and I could never be the girl who just blindly supports someone when I think they’re being selfish and cruel. She was so lovely and kind and she’s become someone totally different now, and I don’t know what happened. I could try and fix the friendship, but she keeps telling people that this is the ‘real her’ that she’s been hiding all these years, and if it is, I don’t like her much, and don’t really want to fix a friendship if my friend is gone. I know it sounds like I’m that irritating person who can’t accept that my friend has changed and wants to hold her back, but really, she’s changed into not such a good person.
Anyway, I’m just sad and frustrated and, in a way, relieved it’s over and I know where I stand but still really scared about meeting her in town and how she’s become best friends with my next door neighbour so hangs around all the time. Sigh. Anyone else been through this?