I just want to tell all of KH how much I appreciate being part of this group. I just spent time on ravelry. There’s a political thread in the Remnants forum (not one of the politcal groups), and I’ve been reading. I’ve not participated much, but the few times I have, I’ve come away feeling attacked. Those people are really bloodthirsty. The last time I chimed in, I was put in my place in a way that hurt my feelings so much that I have been in tears much of the day. I still tear up when I think about it. Now, I know I battle depression, and tend to be overly emotional sometimes, but I really was hurt. I don’t know why I’m letting it bother me so much, and that fact is making me mad at myself. Sometimes I hate myself.
Here, we all seem to genuinely like eachother. I know we don’t know eachother personally, it’s just such a welcoming and friendly atmosphere. I mean, even on the two political threads here, where there is plenty of disagreeing, there is still a respectful tone. Not the personal attacks that are allowed on ravelry.
I hate myself for something I did over there. I got so upset, and I’ve been very emotional lately anyway, that I have been crying most of the day. DH is very protective of me because of my illness and some of the things I’ve been through lately, so he was ready to defend me. So I let him get on and defend me. I know, I know-It was a bad idea. Anyway, a lot of people have clicked the “funny” button, and the “disagree” button, so now I feel like I’m just a laughing stock over there. I don’t know what to do to fix it. I don’t what people to dislike me, and think my husband thinks for me. He was just helping me. And I’m the one who asked him to.
Anyway-I have to go now, because I’m starting to cry again. I hope I’m not going to be a laughing stock over here too.