Hi everyone, I haven’t been around much lately, I’m trying to stay busy. I try not to be home too much it’s just too depressing. I’m home right now but I’m going to get going soon to my LYS. I have to drop off some supply lists for some classes that I’m going to be teaching next year and I’ll hang out and knit for a little while. I really want to thank all of you for all the love and support you’ve given to me over the last couple of months, and Ellie (nobones) I will never be able to thank you for what you’ve done for me.
As the title of my new blog indicates I’m trying to start a new life whether I like it or not. As some of you know my real name is not Nadja but I prefer Nadja, she’s more exotic and beautiful and confident than I am but she’s also an invention of my DH Jerry and I’m trying to get beyond that now. I miss him a lot but I’ve been mourning for a long time longer than he’s been dead. The man I fell in love with and married ceased to exist long ago. I still cry a lot and I sit with my KH Big Hug. Sometimes I wonder how long I’m going to be sad. Sometimes I hate my life but that’s when I’m alone and thinking hence the reason I’m never home. I want to start working again just to get a routine going and to bring some cash in so I’m looking for work. I’m hoping to find something maybe in union organizing, I don’t think I want to model anymore as much as I love it, it’s a part of my old life I just want to move on. Besides it gets a little harder every year. I have started working out again which is great, I feel so much better after a good workout.
Well I gotta to get going. Smell ya later!