So sorry about your Dad. I can understand why you would have a hard time enjoying or wearing that kimono. I find clothing can be very sentimental to me and if it was a handmade garment probably even more so.
Interestingly, just this morning I was reminded of a kind of negative knitting association I have since it’s the 6th anniversary of 9/11.
My #1 DD was pregnant and that September I was busy working on a baby blanket for the new baby. As I typically do, I knit on the train to and from work.
That day, after the attacks, my employer sent us all home from work shortly before lunch. We were all stunned and anxious to be with our families and assure ourselves they were save. But with all the confusion that day the trains were running delayed. I finally got a train home and when I think of that day, one of my memories is still of sitting almost trance like on the train knitting my grandson’s blanket. I finished it and gave it to him so it didn’t retain that kind of negative feeling. If anything, knitting on the train that day helped to keep me calmer and focused on something other than the tragedy that was unfolding across our country. When I got home, it was a different story. I was glued to the tv for days and little work got done on the blanket.