My Mother Died Last Night

#1

My mother passed away at midnight last night. I knew it was coming but didn’t expect it to be so soon. I thought she would at least make it through Christmas and her birthday two days after.

I had prepared myself for this news, but it is still hard to take and I suppose I am still in something of a state of shock. I had prayed just a couple of days ago that if she had to go that G-d be merciful and make it quick so she wouldn’t have to suffer. I am at least thankful for that, she simply slipped into a coma and never woke up again. I think that’s preferable to suffering a painful, lingering illness and death.

She’s at peace now.

I am in Florida with a load heading to Ohio. I am waiting for our dispatch office to open up so I can find out if there is another driver in the area or a reasonable distance away who needs a load and can take mine so I can get home. I am grieving for my mother and at the same time my head is swimming with all of the details that must be attended to. I can’t even think straight about all of that right now.

I tried to get at least some sleep last night after getting the news, but it was spotty at best. I remember at one point, between the tossing and turning, having a brief dream that I had rushed home to find that she was in fact still alive. Some part of my mind trying to deny the reality I suppose.

The clock is moving painfully slow right now. I just want to get this load off of me so I can get home where I am needed. I regret not having made it there to see her one last time before she passed. I truly thought we had a little more time.

#2

:cry:I am so sorry for your loss Mason…so sorry…

#3

Oh Mason, I literally have tears in my eyes for your loss
I am so sorry
thank you for sharing with us
and as always
if there is anything I can do
just ask

ecb

#4

I am so sorry for your loss Mason. That certainly was very quick but as you said, she is at peace now. Will be thinking of you. :hug:

#5

Mason, I am in total shock, too! I feel so badly for you, being over road at a time when I know you wanted to be there.

My mom slipped away fast, too. Nine days after the cancer re-surfaced. I was in shock.

Please accept my condolences!

You have a lot of KH friends that are feeling your pain tonight! :pout:

#6

Oh my gosh! You poor dear.

:cry:

I feel like she’s a part of our family because of all you’ve shared with us about her.

I am praying for you…that God will provide a replacement driver…that He will direct you to get all of the “stuff” done…that you will feel His arms of comfort around you.

I’m sure your mom is now dancing in Heaven, probably talking up a storm.

Please know that I hurt for you and will keep your family in my prayers.

:grphug:

#7

Mason,
Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers during this very difficult time for you. I’m so sorry.

#8

Mason, I’m so sorry to hear this, and sorry that you weren’t able to be there. I’ll be praying for you and your family.

#9

:heart: :hug: Mason, I’m so sorry. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I hope they find a new driver soon :hug: :heart:

#10

Oh my goodness, I am so sorry to hear. I hope you can make it home soon, you’re in my thoughts :hug::hug:

#11

I am so sorry for your loss. I have no other words. :pout:

#12

Oh Mason, I’m so sorry to hear this! As unexpected (or as quickly) as she went, it’s a blessing in disguise…at least she didn’t have long to suffer. My mom lasted 5 months from her terminal diagnosis, and it was very rough indeed.

I hope that there’s a driver close by that can take your load, I understand that your mind simply can’t be there when there’s so much you’ve got to do.

Please know that we’re all holding you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

(((((Hugs)))))
Debra in NC

#13

Thanks everyone. One of our drivers called me and she’s about 3 hours away and heading here. I should be able to make it home this afternoon.

#14

Mason - my deepest condolences. So glad to hear that you will be able to make it home soon.

#15

Mason, I am so sorry. Losing your Mom, whether expected or unexpected is a very difficult thing. Please don’t be hard on yourself. We all do the best we can in the moment we are in and unfortunately there are times that we wish things had been different. But your Mom had a life time of love from you so don’t beat yourself up over what you “shoulda” done.

((HUGS))

#16

Mason, I’m so sorry to hear about your mom. From reading your posts, it’s obvious that her presence in and influence on your life was great, and I know you will miss her tremendously. I’m sorry that you weren’t able to be there with her, but even though she’s gone from this life, she will always be with you in yours.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. :hug: :hug: :hug:

#17

Im so so sorry.

#18

Mason, please know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.

#19

Oh, Mason!

So sorry to heare about that! There’s never enough time with a loved one. I know that she is at peace and all that but it is still so difficult. My prayers to you, friend.

Bambi

#20

I’m so sorry Mason. I feel like she’s family to all of us and she will be missed. It was nice to get to meet her here at the site. What a wonderful lady. I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ll be thinking of you lots:heart: