I feel like I’m falling apart here lately. Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with PCOS and then today when my blood work came in I was told my LDL was 166!!! That scares me half to death!!! That is in the high risk for heart disease range. I’m only 34!! I’m not supposed to have these problems! I just want to break down and cry, but I’m at work so I can’t. I don’t even really have anyone to talk to about it because my so-called best friend and only friend is no longer my friend as of last week and poor DH is trying so hard to help me through this, but I don’t want to burden him all the time. I called him as soon as I got the results and he said whatever the cost and time, we would hire a dietician and personal trainer to at least get me started. He is such a sweetheart!!! I guess more than anything I’m just scared. I know I’m not the only one dealing with such health issues and there are certainly people who are dealing with much more than I am, but it was just such a blow to my self esteem and with no one to confide in, I just feel like it’s all building up inside of me and it’s going to explode in a mirade of emotions!!
Ugh!! I guess I just needed to vent a little. Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. I wish I could just leave the office for a little bit and just take a walk, but the other secretary only works on Monday, Wednesday and half day Fridays. That issue is a whole other post!!!