My grandpa (who’s been losing his battle with cancer for the past year) was admitted to the hospital after falling tonight and is now in a coma; they don’t think he’s going to make it through the night.
I’m not close to him, I never have been. But all three of my sisters and my mom are EXTREMELY close to him. I do love him, but in a sort of distant way. I’m an extremely sympathetic person, so hearing of anyone I know being extremely sick, dying, or in pain just tears me up inside.
I don’t know how to feel right now. I keep crying but I know that my mom more than anyone needs me to stay strong. How do I stay strong when all I want to do is crumple? I’ve never had to deal with the death of anyone I’ve known before, so after almost 22 years in the world I just feel… unprepared.