Last week i received a horrible phone that my grandfather almost died. they took him to the er just in time. He has high blood pressure and he gets fluid buildup if he doesn’t take his medicine. which what happened. He had fluid in his lungs around his heart and in his legs. He even went into renal failure.
He is better now but I can’t stop crying at random times. I don’t know if its guilt about living across the country and he is in ny or because they didn’t call me until hours later. And i keep thinking that if he didn’t get better i couldn’t have gotten there in time to say goodbye.
I know he is better now so i dont know why i keep bursting into tears. He always said he was proud of me but now i am just feel so wrong being so far away from him. He was my second father so much so that I called him Papa. I dont know what to do to stop the crying fits. i dont even understand why i am. Logically I know he is better. So why I am still crying?
thanks for letting me get this out. you guys are always so supportive.