Just wanted to announce to my wonderful knitting family that from this night forward I am letting go of all of my insecurites/past baggage as it just causes drama and uneeded upsetment or stress in my life which I can so live without! Some of you already know that Approx. 8 months ago I had a bad falling out with a friend since 5th grade(I am a senior in college and am 25 years old)…one whom I truly thought was my best friend and would be there for me through thick and thin and vice versa. We were like frick and frack. Truth be told I loved her like a sister and this whole ordeal has upset me greatly.
I cried alot and didn’t really understand why we weren’t talking in the first place but like a child she refused to communicate with me when I tried multiple times to talk to her and work things out like any mature adult would do…so honestly if that is the case then our friendship must have been one sided from the get go and it must not have meant as much to her anyhow so I am done trying. I mean truthfully I am a lover not a fighter…I never have been and I never will be. I am a very loyal person to those who deserve it and well, obviously sometimes to those who do not!
Proof of this fact is sustaining a healthy, loving relationship with my long term boyfriend(9 years) now fiance/soon to be husband a loving friendship with my mother, grandmother, cousins, my friends and my uncanny ability to make new friends almost instantly:) There are some people in this world that live off of drama and it is the only thing that they cling to in order to make their lives interesting and I am not one of them! Unlike them I do not like to devise schemes that hurt people. I do not like to hurt anyone at all (let alone deliberately hurting them mentally), I do not like to hold grudges, I do not blame my issues or problems on others, and I do not mimic other people lives in search of my own… I think it is unhealthy,childish, and just plain mean…with that being said I am letting go of the anger, upsetment,bitterness,drama, and resentment, related to this friendship and so I have decided the best course of action would be to close that whole chapter in my life altogether.
I have decided to hold my head up high & move onward as I have alot of love & happiness surrounding my life… and that is def. worth living for;) I will be me again the happy-go-lucky, carefree person I once was …the one that laughs at random moments, has silly outbursts of energy, and dances like no ones watching…The one that enjoys all the random moments that life has to offer:)
Thanks everyone for listening to me vent…now that I got that off of my chest I feel exhilirated…much like my old self again!