thanks ladies for all the support and cheering on.
im a cloth diapering mama...who never ever did cloth diapers ever in my life. it was something i needed to train myself to understand and keep up on and stick thorugh even when it got tough or when i got overhwlemed with all the lingo and terms and types of methods. now, i host an online board for cloth diaparing mamas!
so that is what i have been reminding myself constantly, it takes time, one step at a time, i realize im not going to understand every term or way of casting on or even how to make anything past the first few rows of a pot holder.
so i started with a simple cast on that made sense - the long tail, i get it, it's fast and easy and i have now gotten it towhere it isn't too tight anymoreand is pretty even. then i knitted for days..just knitted and knitted and knitted. then i spent days on purling, just purling and purling and purling. then i tried to combine them and it got messy but i had it pretty good.
i think i have found out what it is that's making it difficult. today my friend who crochets, she brought osme stuff to our kids' soccer game to show me (and to give me tons of yarn! the softest yarn i have ever felt!) anyways, and she showed me how to do some crocheting...with a shorter and thicker needle than i use to knit. it was so easy! i felt i had more control with the hook size and im thinking it might be the problem...my knitting needles are too long and too thin for me. they get in the way when they are suppose to be what's doing the work!
so tomorrow im going to head over to the store and pick up short, thicker needles and see if it helps. thank goodness needles aren't too expensive!
im not giving up...i know i can't, it will irk me for the rest of my life LOL and even dh is seeing my work and telling me im doing good and not to give up and that he thinks i am going to love it and enjoy it and do so so good once i get all the kinks worked out.